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luvnd
20 August 2014 @ 09:57 pm
My mother drives me crazy but I would be lost without her. Today I bought a car or rather a down payment, but wasn't planning on buying one so I had no money with me. My mom spent 1300 today to ensure I could go home with one and that I would have insurance. I so far have paid her 900. I am going to pay her every cent back and hope one day I have a good enough job that I can buy her that highlander she has always wanted, I love my mom
 
 
luvnd
01 April 2014 @ 09:27 pm
It's still weird for me. It's even weirder knowing that I met him before, but it's weird. Really. Ugh weird moments and me always seem to meet
 
 
luvnd
23 November 2013 @ 06:18 pm
I really love music, especially the type of songs that make me want to draw. I miss drawing and painting. I miss having fingers that are black from charcoal. But I haven't drawn anything in a very long time. Why haven't I drawn lately? The answer is laziness and self pity. I'm done with both. I think I'm drowning in my own self pity and that is just not the way to live my life. Ive gained way too much weight and so starting today I am getting back on track to do the things that make me happy.
 
 
luvnd
24 July 2013 @ 04:42 pm
Last week my ex poked me on Facebook, and it pissed me off. Earlier this year we were talking cause he was all suicidal and I felt bad, but then he got better and stopped talking to me. And that was okay cause I stopped responding to him anyway. But then I get a poke so on the advice of my supervisor I blocked him and once I went on his page I think I know why he poked me. His status said he was going on a date that night and I know it could be a coincidence but Sean is a petty asshole and he probably wanted me to see it. Because then I'd ask about it like I used to but all I could think was "poor girl." I am just done and I think I ma going to be single for life cause I have yet to have one positive dating experience. Every guy I've dated has either told I'm the girl you fuck and not date or treated me like crap. Only once has any guy I have dated or went out with made me think I'd want to get back out there fully, and he was a one night stand.

And I'm okay with that becasue it is making me independent and lately I have been feeling like I am Wonder Woman and can take on the world. Although my mm has a lot to do with that becasue she raised me to be a damn warrior and not to let life drag me down.
 
 
luvnd
25 May 2012 @ 12:18 am
He's such a flake and full of shit, but I can't help but smile every time he texts me. I don't know why I am so confused he's already pulled a disappearance act but when we talk it just clicks somehow , Boy has gotten me feeling confuddled
 
 
 
luvnd
20 November 2011 @ 11:53 pm
I am confuddled confused beyond belief about everything augh
 
 
luvnd
21 February 2011 @ 09:25 pm
So last week I saw my xmas tree. Sorry I was too tired to hang out after work but people at Target drain me.

Anyway I ran into a former co worker yesterday, which made me sad not cause I missed the person but it reminded me of a job I used to have a really amazing friendship that I built while there. And that ended so horrific it kinda still hurts to even see the person. So there is my sob story of the day.

School, I will be taking two classes at Citrus this semester. One to help me with my horrible grammar and the other to save me from student loans cause I can't pay my 600 a month student loans. I don't even make that much a month.

So I have been feeling very blah lately and it's getting harder and harder to fight it. I don't know whats up but somethings nagging at me and it won't shut up but at the same time I have no idea what it is. Okay maybe I have an idea but I don't know how to confront it yet. I'm thinking it is going to consume until I figure out what the hell I have to do so I'm getting used to the feeling but a the same time it's such a downer. It's like really? Although it did go away during HIMYM tonight but then again who can be mad when Barney and Marshall are on the TV screen? I mean really.

Oh and my hair is getting longer, I can finally fit into one rubber band. However I want to cut my hair again so we'll see how long this lasts. lol

No Doubt is finally coming out with a new album this year or so they say but it's only going to be like 10 tracks. Really? I mean come on No Doubt at least throw in a couple of covers it's only been like ten years since your last album.

So I'm going to end this random post on a very serious question: Jackee when are we going to hang out again? :) I miss you
 
 
luvnd
22 September 2010 @ 02:50 pm


I love this woman, this is one of the reasons why I love her
 
 
luvnd
11 June 2010 @ 09:42 pm
Okay so lately I have gottne into Glee. It's bad but the thing I love about Glee more than anyhting is Artie. I love Artie. He's a little funny looking but damn his voice is so good. He's way better than Finn. But he is my favorite character on the show. But I also love Kurt and Puck. Anyway I have turned into a Gleek. It's almost embrassing but wheatevet I'm already a Twilight NO Doubt and Criminla mInds obessessor. So Glee makes sense. Anyway I love Glee and I think those who read it should give it a chance becasue it has good story lines, good music, and Artie. lol
miss you jackee
 
 
luvnd
10 April 2010 @ 10:57 pm
"Ache"

Woke up this morning and felt no too cool -
ooh ooh ooh ooh
'Cause every time I tried to make my mouth
move - ooh ooh ooh ooh
The pain I'm having is so discomforting
Please make this suffering go away
Wo wo wo wo I told my mom what I was
feeling
And how long I've been dealing with it
I knew it was coming, but didn't know how
soon
She said I've reached another adolescent
monsoon - oon

OOoo Ahh... the pain is tremendous
Why can't I take it like a man
OOoo Ahh... the pain is horrendous
Why can't you lend a helpin' hand

He was a well-educated man, had his degree in
medicine
I noticed his hairy hands... he was a very, very
hairy man
He looked right down in, shook his head and
then said
"these teeth must be pulled right away hey!"

OOoo Ahh... the pain is tremendous
Why can't I take it like a man
OOoo Ahh... the pain is horrendous
Why can't you lend a helpin' hand
OOoo Ahh... the pain is tremendous
Why can't I take it like a man
OOoo Ahh... the pain is horrendous
Why can't you lend a helpin' hand

He turned around, rolled up his sleeve
I rolled my eyes then suddenly
A horrible pain grew, the next thing that I
knew
The doc had pulled my wisdom teeth... OUT!
Well along with my teeth my money also left
me
As he made out the bill, I was moaning
OOoo Ahh... the pain is tremendous
Where the hell is my prescription.... of
codeine?

Ooh but when will I speak, how long until my
mouth feels natural?
How long will they bleed, when will they heal,
where's the real meal?
How do you feel? How do you feel? How do
you feel? How do you feel?
How do you feel? How do you feel? How do
you feel? How do you feel?
How do you feel? How do you feel? How do
you feel? How do you feel?
How do you feel? How do you feel? How do
you feel? How do you feel?

I feel good... I feel great... there's no pain...
there's no ache
I feel good... I feel great... just let me
recuperate
I feel good... I feel great... there's no pain...
there's no ache
I feel good... I feel great... just let me
recuperate

Because the codeine has left me drowsy, leave
me be... just let me sleep!

this song is describing my life. I just had my wisdom teeth pulled out Friday and was a total baby. i remember after they gave me the shot to put me under the aides talking about going green. Then woke up crying in pain and wanting my mommy. lol. actually calling for my mommy like a little girl. ugh so embarrassed. I'm in so much pain, well not as much cause the pain medication has kicked in but was so bad nothing took the pain away for the past 24 hours. Anyway haven't been able to do my school work because of it and being a little drugged up so had a LOTR marathon instead. I forgot how long but good they were but really long. So should be graduating soon, I really hope so at least but something tell me I'm going to fall short. Well anyway that's life just trying to graduate and hopefully find a job soon